Sickness
hello cough everyone! cough cough I'm doing fine! coughs more and collapses
Yeah.. I'm not doing so well as of lately. I got sick around 2 weeks ago with a bad fever, which went down but I'm still awfully sick. At one point I was spitting up blood for a couple of days but that went away thankfully. I CANNOT stop coughing however.
I really miss being healthy even if it was like, a month ago. Coughing constantly truly feels like hell.
On another note, my English teacher made us read and annotate a poem. I'll give you the whole thing:
False accusation,
Temporarily scars my reputation,
A rash, affecting my complexion,
I question why the truth has led to persecution.
I try to scratch off the lies that are said against me,
I try to dodge all the darts that you’re throwing at me,
Just wait for some time, the truth will surely come to light,
You soon will surely find, that the whole time I was right.
Don’t even try to spite me,
‘Cause you don’t like me,
What goes around,
Comes around,
And you will find me innocent,
Omniscient,
Is our God, who sees everything,
And I know,
He will show you who is lying.
I don’t want to call you a Pharisee,
But it’s sad to see,
How you’re accusing me,
Remember the times that you needed me,
I never charged a fee,
‘Cause you were close to me,
I see how you have made me your “enemy”,
Through your lies and the way you are treating me.
False accusation,
Temporarily scars my reputation,
A rash, affecting my complexion,
I question why the truth has led to persecution.
by Regina Quartey in 2013, copied from commonlit.org
#thosewhoknow but also DOES MY TEACHER WANT ME DEAD? This hits so close to home it practically crashed in the window and is now inside the home. I do really find myself resonating with that "I question why the truth has led to persecution." line.
She gave us a whole packet answering questions relating to this poem, and I was a bit afraid it would cause me to remember everything and make me spiral. Shockingly I found that it was rather comforting. It's quite nice to know that there's another person out there who feels something similar to what I did. Perhaps it's a little different, but it's enough for me to ignore. Being betrayed by my entire family, and entire school administration, was difficult. To this day nobody ever believed the truth nor did they believe me. But, it's been years, and I'm not even human!
At the current moment I'm home alone and waiting for hash browns in the oven to cook. I'll be alright... I say as I cough a bunch of times.
I've been obsessing over a certain PS Vita game but I'd rather not name it. While I do say this blog is a place for everything to come together, I don't like bringing any sort of "dark" media in any public space even if it's a tiny bit. It's a little hypocritical considering my age but I would rather die than have someone exposed to such things like how I did when I was smaller. It's not even that bad, the game is quite nice, but my favorite character just HAS to be the fucking asshole who does shitty things to the mc so wow.
ok my hashbrowns are done! gooooodnight everyponyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy