Relations 2.0
My ex gifted me a cinnamoroll keychain, hooray! I'm very happy right now!
unfortunately I am forever haunted by the fact that I cannot be with him.
The time will come when I need to tell him the truth that I am not the cishet girlfriend of his dreams. I think my best bet is telling him in senior year. Same time, how would that go? "hey sorry I'm not a girl and I'm not straight and I also use masculine terms but do you fw nonbinary losers by any chance haha?"
I don't exactly see myself with him in the long run anyway. I don't see myself with anyone actually. I don't exactly find myself "loving" at all, more of just admiration towards the people in my life. Yeah sure I love all my friends no matter how close or far, but I use that term lightly. I don't mean actual romantic love. Anyway that'll probably change in the future and I'll be back on this blog in a few years going "hell yeah just found the person of my dreams" or something...