Perhaps not all is awful
PAST 12 AM!!
GODLY PLAYLIST ON!!
SUPER WARM BLANKET!!
BL ON SCREEN!!
LIFE IS GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alright jokes aside, this small trip was actually not bad. Yes, I was going batshit crazy insane the first few days, but I feel okay. Going to live with my dad and step mother for a week wasn't actually hell.
I suppose it's from my health becoming a lot better now. The paranoia has gone away and I'm actually somewhat normal. Human-ish, almost!
I went shopping with my mother and siblings yesterday (guess it's 2 days ago now? It's currently 12:25 AM as I type, haha.) and it was super fun! I practically live in the clearance section in stores. I found a pair of shoes for 90% off which was insane. I mean, $130 to $12 and some cents! Guess nobody really wanted them. Except me. I also bought a few new shirts. Since I'm not stupidly underweight anymore, some of the clothes I bought a while back don't fit anymore. They're too tight & the sleeves don't reach to my wrists.
The thing that stands out the most probably are the nights I spent staying up doing bullshit. I finished my new updated sona model which I was procrastinating on for MONTHS & finally started to wrap up modeling on my MMD model. Also I started playing roblox a lot more frequently. I'm serious. I also tried out Roblox's voice chat feature and got hit with a warning for cursing once very quietly.
Ah, guess it's on me, I do curse really casually at times. But this is absurd. I played a game of Natural Disaster Survival with some of my friends from school and heard a girl a TON of curse words in VC. I also heard moaning but let's not get into that.
Truthfully I've been a bit insecure of my voice. I revealed my voice to one of my online friends (the orange fish in the screenshot, hello Candy!) and she told me my voice is actually pleasant. Even if a lie, it's enough to make me much happier about it. If I could choose, I'd want a more masculine voice.
I do force my voice in real life. I think it's obvious but nobody's ever pointed it out. I make myself sound a whole lot more higher pitched to be more feminine. Which is a little strange but seriously, my voice is so odd. Neither feminine nor masculine. Wait that's so nonbinary. Thanks god! But I sound awful please take it back.
Some part of me actually wants this trip to be a little longer. Taking care of my siblings, seeing my parents, fun nights spent on my laptop, it's a nice break from all the stress. It's a nice way to end probably the best summer break ever. I mean, I had a job, hanged out with my coworkers/friends, got back into my Pokemon obsession, and just had a nice time. It's much better compared to last summer.
Speaking of Pokemon, there's actually a local place that sells cards nearby! Unfortunately it's a bit too late to go. Besides, I doubt my dad would let me get cards. I'm sure I'll find some other place that sells Pokemon cards elsewhere.
I plan on staying up for the entire night. It's practically tradition anyway. I'll stay up all night on my laptop, then sleep on the ride back.
It's been a nice summer. I just hope the school year is similar. As awful as school has been, it would be nice to end things on good memories.