Eyes
MY EYES HURT LIKE HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
No, seriously. Ever since I "died" last year in June, I've always had this excruciating pain in my eyes the second they get watery. It's been constant all week. Actually crying and not just teary? Good lord. Truly feels like being stabbed in the eyeballs. Also I got this irritating, constant left eye twitch with the pain so that's wonderful.
I've just been having a really, really bad week actually. At least in real life. On the internet side of things, I posted art on DeviantArt and I've been getting lots of favorites! Woohoo! I also started on a commissions art page using straw.page. Check it out maybe? I also got Zibai in Genshin Impact.
On the reality side, it's hell. I haven't been this paranoid in a long time. My sleep schedule is non-existent and I'm drinking coffee all day. I keep running into people I don't want to see. There's always something unpleasant happening every single day.
And the loneliness is truly killing me.
I mean, I'm not completely "alone." I started talking to my ex more often. It's nice to have someone to talk to every now and then. I wish I could open up to him a bit more, but I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't afraid if he knew the truth about me.
I borrowed a book from my English teacher to help distract me from the paranoia. It's quite good! It's Heir by Sabaa Tahir, I'm only on page 205 but I'm enjoying it. If we're being honest, it's been a long time since I actually read a book.
I hope next week gets a bit better. And that the pain in my eyes goes away one day. That'd be nice.